I shared the following account a few years ago … and I have found that the words the Lord gave me to nourish a hurting little boys heart have been the words He has used to nourish my own.
Is it truth?
There are many things in our day to day living that are confusing and unsettling. We aren’t meant to run the gauntlet of emotions, leaving us battered and uncertain and ruled by the feelings of the moment. Over and over again as we have faced disappointment and trials of various sorts I am brought back to this thought. I may feel one way, but does it align with what I know to be true from God’s word?
(the following is reposted from a few years ago)
I sat, outside his room, pensive. I hadn’t yet decided how to handle the situation when he let at it again;
“I SAID,” he screamed, louder this time. “I FEEL LIKE YOU DON’T LOVE ME! DO YOU HEAR ME? I FEEL LIKE YOU DON’T LOVE ME.”
His repeated deceleration did not lead me anywhere closer to knowing what to do with him.
It’s a curious thing how, as a believer, we have full access to the throne room of God to go and ask for wisdom, for patience, for love in trying moments and yet how easy it is to forget to do that. You would think that when the peaceful haven of one’s home is unraveling with ugly words or actions that the very first reaction would be to run to the Giver of wisdom, the Creator of each unique being, the One who is Love. But it is all too often only after I have tried to make things work my way that I remember to pray. But I am thankful that on this day I remembered that He is there and He listens, and this tired, heart hurting mama prayed for wisdom and prayed for a special kind of love for a trying little boy.
And in that moment I found what I wanted to say to the boy who felt unloved.
I went and lay next to him and listened as he repeated, again, how he felt like I didn’t love him.
I gently rubbed his back.
And I asked him if he knew that to be truth.
His little eyes filled with tears and he whispered “No mama, I know it’s not true.”
“What do you know is true sweetheart?”
“I know that you love me.”
“So is what you feel true?”
And I talked with him about feelings and how they can change so quickly and that they must always be filtered through that which is true. We were created to feel, and it is such a beautiful aspect of humanity. It is good to feel and this is not about discrediting feelings.
But when we are tired, we feel differently than when we are well rested.
When we eat too much sugar, we feel differently than when our diet is well balanced.
When someone praises us or when someone criticizes us, we feel differently than when we aren’t thinking about what others think.
The truth though? The thing about it is that it never changes.
And when tantrums flare because of how we feel we need to pause for a moment and remember that which is true. Anchor ourselves with truth. Filter our feelings with truth. It is the difference between not feeling loved and knowing with absolute confidence that you are.
Sanctify them through Your truth: Your word is truth. – John 17:17