I know how you feel. You’re tired, you ache, you want to made well, but this is it. This is the life that has been determined for you. God knows how difficult it is at times, but you wonder if anyone else can relate.
Is there another Mama who wanted to never be the Mama who was not well?
Is there anyone else out there who has a twelve year old who takes the weight of it all on her own shoulders even though you never asked her to and really she doesn’t have to? But, she’s the first-born and is intuitive and senses there are days that are a little rough.
Anyone else with a seven year old boy who talks one day about inventing a lung so that other kids, who may have to go through what his Mama did when she was a little girl, will still be able to run a marathon one day?
Any other Mama out there who can’t hardly keep up to her three year old because you live with 30% lung capacity?
Is there anyone else who fancied stamina that would show up the Energizer Bunny?
What about woman who wondered why the months and then years passed before two lines on a pregnancy test would appear? And then wondered how you are going to have the strength some days to raise and disciple these little ones entrusted to you?
Does there happen to be a Mama out there who hoped to be free from fears of receiving a secondary diagnosis now that you actually are a Mama? And how do you keep on going with severe aortic stenosis now as well as the lung damage all because of a dreadful disease from when you were three years old.
I know it could be a lot worse, but your own reality is all you’ve ever known.
You know what I’ve been learning as I live this life I never would have chosen for myself?
We are never alone. Ever. And God will strengthen us and use us for His glory.
The One who has healed our hearts is the One who we cry out to.
In the providence and sovereignty of God, He is my comfort.
He is my refuge. He is my shelter. He is my strength.
When you wonder how you will get through these days, know that you are not doing this on your own.
Your story probably has its own challenges, but our solution is the same.
Grace. Amazing, astounding, cascading grace.
And like anything, perspective is half the battle. If we wallow in our woes we will end up defeating ourselves. Like Paul, we need to learn to be content in whatever circumstance we’re in. It is a daily preaching to yourself.
So, may I leave you with ten of the truths that I have to keep preaching to myself on a daily basis.
1. Learn my own limitations and don’t think I have to do everything.
“For God is working in you, giving you the desire and the power to do what pleases him.” (Phil 2:13)
2. Know that Christ’s strength is made perfect in my weakness. And His amazing grace that He continues to pour out is all I ever need. The joy of the Lord is my strength and in Him will I boast.
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” (Cor 2:9)
3. Accept the willingness of others to help me when I need it even though I may not want to admit it. We need one another and let it be a blessing for them and to you.
5. Trust in the Lord. He will guide me in all I do.
“But blessed are those who trust in the LORD and have made the LORD their hope and confidence.” (Jeremiah 17:7)
6. Believe that His goodness and unfailing love will pursue me all the days of my life. He really has chased me down His unfailing love, wooed me with His eternal love, and proved to me that His mercies are new every morning. He is always good and does good.
7. Know that the antidote to fear is the assurance of God’s presence and protection.
8. Use my health for the praise of His glory. I am here to bring glory to God.
9. Pray. Without ceasing. Because you must move forward even though you may not know how.
“Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us” (Eph 3:20)
Because He Lives,
Rebekah blogs at A Soft Gentle Voice, and is also participating in the 31 day series writing on Who Am I in Christ?
This is part of the series 31 Days of Encouragement for Mama that is running through the month of October. Check out all the posts in the series here.